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She was once so weak that she couldn't walk. But she came. It made all the difference. One game, she could barely make it across the field. We carried a chair foward every few feet so she could walk and then rest. Everything she had was for Him. She told us to give it all for God's glory, and that in the end, nothing else would matter. I remember talking to her after a dinner. She leaned against a wall and looked up at me. "The apostle Paul is my personal hero." She held her hand out, motioning, and smiled. At times she was physically wiped, wrapped in blankets and still shivering. not a word of complaint, not a cry of pain. Her frail body was in suffering for a long time, yet she had so much strength and joy. I never knew a woman so close to her maker, so strong in the faith, and so tested. She was always straightforward and honest. She looked life right in the eye. She was ready.

I don't have any good words in my dry mouth. Nothing comes but tears and grief. Is grief good?

Oh but she is with Him, Him in all His glory, and now they wait for us.

Still-

the need for speed

i've been sitting here rolling em and...

ok kids, it comes to the point of critical defense- do we do it or not?














yes, recently i've been tempted to try crystal meth after working on it as ae for a special for tv
i mean, look, you don't need plastic surgery- just take some beautiful meth

we are generation X (repeat that 3x)

seriously- maybe all we do so thoughtlessly- it's like a drug addiction

so i smile and realize how much i hate myself and love myself

oh the agony and the ecstacy!

my life this week: procrastination drives desparation- as is LAST MINUTE PHC APP!!

peace

ps: oh i forgot- the diary part:

dear online super personal blog diary,

- today i baked chocolate chip cookies, took pictures of my dog, and tried to speculate where my life would be in 5 years. Then, i talked to my friend Suzie on the phone for like half and hour, and than chilled at the pool.*

come on- nobody can take this crap!

*pending personal blog removal
*completely fictional story that i would never do

in opt for

Super cool video blog that is impersonal!!!

there, i did it, i officially suck- i made a blog entry.